Enough already.

Boy, where do I start? This PPKM darurat is shitty, and our government response towards this pandemic has been totally bullshit. I’ve been in this vicious cycle of trying to function, despite the fact that I actually can gain my ability to function when I am around my friends, and families, and pets, and my loved ones. The PPKM made me unable to do absolutely almost nothing. Nothing. I had to dragged myself to write the email, or to exercise, or not to quit, and to allowing myself for an hour or two naps between calls. I am extremely tired and it’s from doing nothing. I am naturally an extrovert, so this pandemic is the worst. I know, I know, I should’ve been thankful for I am already vaccinated, and I am fully covered, I have access to medical service 24/7 and I am sheltered at the safest place possible (the perks of living alone, so u’r not accepting any guests, and with you’re not going around, the chances of you’re getting infected is so small?) I know, I know, I got it. But, we have to admit that this is not normal, things has been crappy, and I am entitled to my feeling. My feelings are valid and this time, I am feeling not OK. I’ve been hearing ambulance blaring every hour in my neighbourhood, and the mosque mentioning the name of the deceased, and me, doing news, I am exposed to all the bullshits our govt had been doing. Dude, this is scary. This is terrifying, and the worst part is, we don’t even know when this will ever gonna end.